Entry 1: Closure
We ended our years of togetherness with no sorrys, no goodbyes, no closure.
This is what I wanted to say....
I regret that we ended this way. I apologize for all the hurt that I put you through. I wanted you to feel hurt as you did me. But I know now that it was stupid.
I am really really sorry. I can't imagine how hurt your feeling was when I treated you the way I did. It must really broke your heart.
I don't hate you or your partner. I just don't think that I can be all cool facing you, seeing you with happily married to someone else. And I am angry at myself for thinking that that could have been me. That could have been us. I don't want to think that.
Thank you for everything that you have done to me. Thank you for all the good times that I had being in your company.
Now it's time to let go. It's time to say goodbye. It's time to move on. I don't know if I can but I know I have to. I must.
